Sleep! Give me sleep!

[lexin]

I am exhausted. My psychiatrist increased my anti-psychotic and I feel as if I've been stuffed with cotton wool – weak and floppy and squashable. I'm struggling to put one foot in front of the other.

A friend from the union came round and borrowed a frock I made for a convention. She's going to a Renaissance wedding and needed something to wear; I offered as I hardly wear those frocks. It was a bit stretched on her and she suggested that we both go on a diet. I don't feel much like dieting – I've got enough to think about without adding that.

I was too weak to say so, and now I'm feeling guilty about every mouthful, while still eating as much as I usually do. So that's got me precisely nowhere. Suggestions that I 'just eat less' will be treated with the contempt they deserve – if it were that easy, I'd have done it already. Besides, I know nobody IRL who's dieted and kept the weight off. There may be such people, but I'm not one of them and I've never actually met one of them.

I want to go to sleep!

Comments

[melodyclark.livejournal.com]

Anyone who tells you to "eat less" should be, first of all, taken out and forced to have their eating metered. As with most thin people, they simply eat as much or more than the average fat person but their metabolism is very bad and they burn up fuel. We pudgy folk come from people whose metabolism had to adjust due to exigent circumstances (like famine, extreme exercise needed to survive, etc). It's much harder for fat people to lose weight than it is for thin people. My own obesity doctor told me that. He's very slender and runs in marathons so he's not in denial. :)

You have enough to deal with right now. If you want to deal with diet issues, that's for you alone to decide and down the road a-ways. BTW, next time you see that "eat less" person, please spit in her/his face and tell them it was from me. :)

[lexin.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the support! :-)

[mediumajaxwench.livejournal.com]

It's much harder for fat people to lose weight than it is for thin people.

The reverse is also true. In the fifties the US army did some studies trying to get soldiers to gain weight and the men were consuming somewhere around 10,000 calories a day (iirc) before they started gaining more than about 20 pounds. Up to that point their metabolism just compensated for the extra food.